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How’s a Raven like a writing desk?
I always think of such things that always perplex
Everyone around me in this plain life
Where a girl is built to be a lady and later a wife
yet how can I live a life that’s dictated by one’s sex?
I know my duty
is not only to be the etiquette sense of beauty
But to also bring joy to my family’s name
for our fortune and riches can be the top of our game,
The game of keeping social integrity
But I don’t want that life me
Because of all the visions I see
there’s a white rabbit with a petticoat
Where there’s a foolish dodo that loves to gloat
The life I see if a whimsical fantasy
A fantasy of nonsense
That is ever constant
Which all in all allows me to be free
And be who I want to be
but that’s not the duty of a maiden’s existence.
I’m to be bound to a husband obedient and silent
And always be submissive and compliant
Yet a yearning grows larger in my heart
That oddily enough sets me farther apart
Of the structure forged by a society etiquette-savvy tyrant
At the end of the day I must submit
And fall to the duties I shall commit
To the point I don’t quite know who I am anymore
As I’m clearly not the same girl I was before
As I’m forced to live unhappily amongst the hypocrite
Of those who tries to convince me I will find happiness
When they themselves can hardly find the merriness
In their own martial arrangement
Of a forced engagement
Only to continue to live a lie of crappiness
At times I wish I could be legally mad
And be dubbed as awful and bad
At least then I can sprout my wings
And see to where the bird sings
Beyond the laughing skies of glad
But despite my dreams so gay
Dark clouds overlay
On my thoughts as if something wretched had happened
when I closed my eyes for sleep, fierce yellow made my legs slackened
Before casting death upon me without delay
My head would roll
Paying a toll
For the nightmare I had entered
As my body laid centered
Below a bulbous red troll
Her little beetle eyes
Filled with joy and demise
Would smile back at me coolly
while my dead one stared unruly
Then she kicked me aside into the de-saturated skies
Before I plunged into a thick musky river
That made my floating spirit shiver
As I was surrounded by rotting flesh
Who will never have to enmesh
The memories of deaths’ deliver
And the rule of a bulbous red queen
Who swiped heads of clean
polluting a world with dread
Demanding all traitors be dead
For she can have peace in mind and be serene.