...ran out of ideas for title names, so simply started it off with a sentence opener. xD
Basically (if you haven't noticed already) I haven't been on much. During the day. For over two hours. Reason why? It's simple.
Dance. Dance, dance. More dance. School. Dance, dance, dance...did I say dance?
Yep, that's my schedule for the day, in that order.
No, I'm kidding. But the point is, dance has been piling on. Normally I only do studio dance, often in the evenings, but it leaves free time after school for homework and free time. For the first month or so, all I was doing was evening ballet and musical theatre classes...
...until dreaded dance line came in.
In order to get my awesome laptop on which I can sneak on at night so I can actually get on during the weeks, I had to make a commitment to this year's school dance line. Don't have to do it next year, but I have to do it this year, which sucks. (I'm probably going to join Speech next year.) I signed up for it back in April/May-ish, so there's no turning back, no turning it down, and I have to put up with it.
Good news: ...at least I'm still taking ballet. *would die if she couldn't have ballet anymore*
Bad news: After school every day for two hours. Straight after that I head to my amazing dance studio. Straight after that, I get home, sneak on until one AM (I have little self-control when it comes to chatting with online friends), and then have to get up at five AM to do homework. Then the vicious cycle begins over again, and over again, and over again, until I'm so flippin' glad it's Wednesday because then I have the least amount of dance, and then I have to put up with it until the weekend, and even then I still have studio dance on Saturday mornings and some Sundays. And on Sundays I have homework. Oh, and did I mention this is my first year of high school? Yeah, the stressed-out freshman year, gotta add that to the list. Oh, oh, it gets better - I have to accompany my choir on the piano. With a really tough song. That I need to learn by December First.
My dad...isn't so supportive of me, either. He's convinced that I'm going to mentally drop this year, and he's pulling me out of studio dance if my grades go down. NOT effing dance line, the thing I hate, oh no, he's pulling me out of the thing I LOVE. That will NOT help my stress level, news flash, Dad. He already had an argument with me that I shouldn't be going on pointe this year, and I damn well WANT to go on pointe, dammit, so I will -
- sorry, ranting. ^^;;
Anyways. My dad has no confidence in me, and to be frank, I'm already losing confidence and it's my first week of both dance team and studio dance. I've already had a few breakdowns this week. To be honest, I'm freakin' scared out of my wits that I'm going to snap this year. At least the dance team ends around February...then I can go back to regular studio dance. Not soon enough, I think...not soon enough.
So, at any rate, if I'm late replying to threads, or if you don't see me around too often, you know the reason why. I'm sorry my schedule is so full this year...and I'm sorry if I snap at any of you, also, if you come across me in a bad mood because of my overflowing life.
You must be thinking, "Why would she go to these great lengths to describe all this to us? Why couldn't she have just said 'Sorry I'm not on more often, I got a ton of dance ^^;;'? Sheesh, crazy lady." Well, I'll tell you why. You guys, this site - this is my family, my home away from home. You guys deserve to know what's going on, a better answer then just "Dance, end of story". At least, I feel that way, call me crazy, I already know I'm psycho. *shrug*
Well, anyways, I might be taking a break, soon, too - I'm getting the feeling I'll need all the breaks I can get. Just a forewarning.
So, sorry for taking a couple of long minutes out of your life to read this excruciatingly long reason for absences. ><;; I probably should drop something, but I can't...my parents won't let me drop dance line, I REFUSE point-blank to drop studio dance, and I can't exactly drop school... Well, hopefully, I'll become a stronger and more mentally prepared person from this experience, aye?
Your favorite spazzy annoying rant-ish pirate,
~Ren. ^.^
